Life in the DuBroc house has been doing a lot of changing lately and the changes have mostly been happening in my life. I have left my job as a Case Manager for a foster care agency to return to graduate school. I will be officially starting the Occupational Therapy program at Texas Woman's University in the fall. This summer, I am taking two classes though to get a bit ahead and get my feet wet. It is amazing that I no longer have to worry about my work phone ringing in the middle of the night. I really thought that it would take awhile for the stress of my job to wear off, but this has simply not been the case. I have not even really thought about it much. I am so thankful to get to be with my kids so much more and to be more "with them" when I am here. All of these changes have made me think more about enjoying everyday and appreciating all that I have. Now that my situation has given me more time to appreciate my family, I see how much I was letting the stress of work cloud my perceptions of my life. I. have. a. great. life. One of the major thoughts that keeps rolling around in my head is..."what if today is the last day of my life??? and then...what if it isn't?". I want to somehow find the balance of living each day with some sense of abandonment and joy, but also I want to wake up the next day proud of what I have accomplished the day before. I want to smile through whatever work I have to do and to find joy in whatever my day holds...whether it be laundry or a midterm...playdates or nick jr. shows. It has been so nice that though I am busy with school assignments and readings, my time is mine to schedule and so I am feeling so much freer to do fun things with the kids during the week. To be honest, I took the kids on outings while I was still working, but I felt guilty about it (really!). So, my new goal is to use this blog as a record of the lives of my awesome kiddos, but also as place of (shallow) reflection for me. Anyone who knows me, knows that I will not get too deep on the internet...I am way to skiddish for that! We did take a fun trip to the Children's Aquarium at Fair Park today, but my photos are less than shareable, so I will post photos of our next great adventure!
If someone actually reads this and then is utterly disappointed that there is nothing about the kids in my post...here you go. They are amazing! Carter is almost 3 1/2 and is too smart for my own good. He is negotiating with us constantly and is learning how to control his emotions. Carter is obsessed with Toy Story and acts like Buzz Lightyear about 70% of the time. You must speak Toy Story to communicate sometimes. Charlotte is a tough and happy kid. She is very physical and has the cutest pigtails in the world. She is a little stubborn, but smiles all day long. She loves Carter so much. She calls for him in the morning when she wakes up. She is talking more and more everyday. She knows a lot of words, but I cannot get her to say her own name. I am so happy to have the kids that I have...they are strong and funny and loving.
